I had a transplant assessment over a year ago, it didn't come as too much of a shock. I was given the option to go away and decide whether to put my name forward for a heart & lung transplant.  I couldn't really get it out of my mind.  I couldn't sleep some nights just trying to make a decision.  Some of my friends have gone through the same experience of not sleeping and not being able to stop thinking about it. 

I finally came to a decision, I just couldn't take that path.  Of course, on occasions, I still ask myself if I've made the right decision but the answer always comes back the same.

There are a few reasons as to why I'm not having a transplant.  One is, that I already feel I was given a new lease of life 12 years ago when I had a successful Liver Transplant.  I feel lucky to have been given that second chance.  I suppose in some ways I am scared of things going wrong having already received a donor liver.  

What if I start having problems with it after all these years?  I'm scared of just swapping one set of
problems for another set.  Of course lots of people have successful transplants but there are
also the ones that don't go quite so well.  Everyone deserves a second chance of life.  Some friends of mine are feeling very well after receiving new organs but it's just not for me second time round.

I hope this makes sense, as it's the only way I can try and explain how I came to make my mind up.

I will continue to help with the friends4life campaign so that more people (including my friends) have a second chance of life.